Sleep

It isn't a good idea to watch sappy chick flicks when you are feeling empty and broken.  But a sentence caught my ear when channel surfing during commercials... "I wanted someone who would watch me sleep". I don't know where I heard it but it welled up my soul. :-(

Many ways...

“There are many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts broken by love, but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream -- whatever that dream might be.”

― Pearl S. Buck

Mountains

Usually when I come home from a trip, the mountains greet me. They are usually sharp and clear even in stormy weather. This time they are muted and have been since I have returned. Through sun, wind and clouds, they are still muted. Nature can teach us a lot if we would only pay attention. For me, the mood of the mountains and the fact that it rained here for nearly my entire vacation brings feelings of sadness. I am trying to figure out why.

By the mountains not greeting me lets me know that I must go.

Home

I have returned from my journey across the sea to an island that is very much a part of me. While there I spend quality time with my mom by going to cooking classes and meandered through the small roads and towns that make up the isle of green. Some areas of the country I feel more drawn too than others. On this trip I learned more about my isle of green's history as well as my own. I am connected there.

This journey was well timed for me. Trying to figure out what to do next with both my personal and work lives is weighing heavily on me. There are many quotes that I could lookup that have to do with being home but none of them quite capture the point in which I am at. In both aspects of my life I feel disrespected, taken advantage of and hurt. I have spent a lot of time dreaming and talking but not a lot of action. I know my weaknesses and my strengths. Some of my sadness will always be there from being "so close".

The ground is rumbling and the spirits are gathering.

It is time.